Sunday, April 5, 2009

Sun, is that you?

I'm so blown away by the warm weather that I honestly don't care that I only have winter maternity clothes.  I think I have 3 tank tops and a pair of shorts, but whatever.  It's only 12 weeks away and I can start working on getting my body back. 

We've had more stress at home recently. Hubby is either going to get fired or quit his job this week.  Bad blowout with his boss over his extra work load and lack of pay, and although I don't think either of them handled it very well, I can't see him continue to work for this guy anymore.  It's been 9 years, and I can't say that there have been very many minutes of it that I have liked.  It's rare to say that you've been through it all because of your husband's job, but I really have.   I'm at the point where I just want it to be over, and have been at this point for years.  It's taken him a lot longer to get there, but when his boss just randomly pulled his raise with no explanation and didn't feel the need to discuss it?  It kind of went downhill from there. 

I worry about him being unemployed with 3 kids and one on the way.  I know we'll be ok for awhile, but the fear of it is keeping me up at night.  Last night I woke up at midnight with really bad heartburn, and was so panicky that I didn't get back to sleep until after 2 am.  I seem to wake up with a lurch and panic immediately.  Not good for baby, and not good for me either. 

I would look forward to him being done with this job if he had something else lined up.  It's that worry that makes me stress.   We pay out so much just for him to work though, that even if he takes a big paycut, it won't be that bad for us.  He just needs to find something. 

I am looking forward to getting rid of his 2 cell phones.  They ring in the morning, at night, and on weekends.  These people have no sense of time.